Condolences for the loss of your father, and really so young at 65. I can't imagine this loss and send thoughts and prayers to you.

My wife lost her mother (and me my mother-in-law)a year and a half ago to advanced stage cancer. It was very overwhelming and unimaginable. From my point of view, I find another insight to be that you can find ways that person is still living on with you--this may differ whatever spiritual perspective one may come from. This might even just be memory and subconscious movements. One of the dreams I had was my mother-in-law was sitting right in the recliner by our couch and smiling at me--just took that as a reminder she was still shining over us.

Of course there is that realization that she is not on the other side of a phone or out in the world somewhere traveling or spending time with family and friends. As much as I try to offer support to my wife that her mom is shining down on us and so at peace, I also realize more and more with her that the loss and grief are always going to be there, but the journey of healing and continuing to love them is also continuous.

I hope you can find continued healing, light, and life and find your dad blessing you on your continued journey.